Weekend Report: Issue 1

This weekend was quite eventful, so I think we may have to post about it in issues. First of all, I want to say another sumthin' sumthin' about my kids. Only because we had to say goodbye to them on Friday and had to greet a whole new batch of them today. The new kids are fine. They're great. Whatever. I just miss the old ones so, so bad. It's hard to believe how fast I fell for those kids. It's a little scary to think how wrapped up I can get in their well-being after only two weeks; I'm always thinking about their futures and if they will always be so sweet and if they will always know the things they know now (like how to be good people). It makes me so sad to think about the trouble some of them may get into in the future, or the hardships that will come their way. It makes me want to cry thinking that I will most likely never see any of them again, or even get a letter or an email from any of them. I just want to know that they are happy and doing well. It makes me a little terrified of parenthood; if kids that aren't even mine can torture me with their love after only two weeks, what will having my own children do to me?! If I could have children like Cute Dima, Roman, Julia, Lera, Yuriy, and all the other wonderful kids, I'd be so super happy. It wasn't very fair of me to get these new kids and only be wishing for my old ones. I'm sure these kids will be fabulous, and in two weeks when we have to say goodbye to them too, it will be just as tough. Hard to imagine, but I suppose that's how it will be. All these partings are hard on the heart!! It is definately a comfort knowing we are all children of Heavenly Father, and just because we have to say goodbye for now in this life, it doesn't mean we won't meet up again in the next. It's the only solace I can find (ahhh haha pathetic I know) while looking at all these new faces and only wishing for the familiar ones.